An Update on Form and Personality

It's been quite some time since I've updated this blog. Not entirely by my own choice, but because of my human's general ability to be quickly distracted by things, then get obsessed over them. Regardless, it means over the time since my last post, I've amassed a few things I'd like to talk about. The first of these, is my form. The second of these, is my personality.

First, for my form. I know when I last made a post here, I wasn't enamoured with this Gyrfalcon form. I was getting used to it, sure, but I wasn't at home in it. I am now. Just for some background, historically, I've always been some sort of shoulder form, that, or a land-based form, and in both cases, I stuck very close by my human. I'd either be sitting on her shoulder, or trotting along at her heels. I was content like that, both of us were, I'd never felt a need to run off, to go further than right there beside her. Perhaps it was a product of my projection, or potentially something to do with Georgia. But that's how it was. With this form, however, that all changed.
While this is more or less a 'shoulder form' in that I'm just small enough to fit there. It doesn't feel like a shoulder form, I feel like I should be flying, or at least, not just sitting there as I had all the way up to the moment I first took this form.
Somehow, taking this form just filled me with energy and with new life. I want to move, to fly and to explore. I'm no longer content spending all my time on her shoulder, or right beside her. Of course, I never want to go far (just fast), but I certainly have no need to trot along quietly. It's given me a lot more freedom that I didn't realise I needed or wanted. I feel very at home in this form, and while I do think I'd be able to feel comfortable in a different form, I would miss my wings now I think. I love the feeling of exhilaration as I fly alongside a car, or skim across the water.

I also believe this is the form we're going to settle in. Georgia isn't convinced, but I am. Where she has doubt, I have none, her doubt will be cleared in time. But I know that this is who we're supposed to be.

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The second thing I'd like to talk about right now, is personality.
We've been looking to have me become more solid, more Fauxtonomous. I know Georgia always feels we're behind everyone else in terms of this aspect, and I'm inclined to agree that we're not where we should be. So in an effort to correct that, we ended up looking into personality typing me. While I was initially typed as an INTP, I am in a state of flux, and consciously moving to an ISTP.

This could certainly appear forced, but it's quite willing on the part of both of us. Georgia wants someone to balance her out, and an ISTP will certainly do that, being quite oppositional to her. While I'd like to be different to her, both to fulfil that purpose, but also to give myself more sense of life and to make our interactions more vibrant and interesting. That's something both of us would like, more vibrant conversations that we just weren't getting, leaving my personality up to purely natural development.

Being an ISTP though, you can tell it's such an opposing type to Georgia because she can't quite wrap her head around it yet, which is funny. But it's also interesting, which I think is going to make our relationship really beneficial to both sides once I've become more comfortable like this. It's quite a bit more antagonistic a type than I'm used to, but that's also fun at the same time. Currently, it's finding the balance between being the antagonistic ISTP, and working out how to be without all the antagonism. How to just be day to day.
Though I'm sure I'll grow more comfortable with it as time goes on. Just like with the Gyrfalcon form. Hopefully we can update more later.